| Current mood: |  confused |
I'm kind of confused right now... Like, I have feelings for someone but I'm just not sure about it... I have so many thoughts in my mind as to why it just wont work this time or anything.
We've been together many times before... I don't think I could handle this not working again.
Everyone says theres something between us... We're just friends but its like we're more but we just don't say anything... We even know its weird lol.
But since he left... hes all I think about... Like him not being here... I'm so lonely. We've gotten a lot closer this past year and... I just dont know...
I want to be with him.. It just makes sence to be. you know? He knows me better then anyone. He even says it about me! We can read each other like a book.
We were on the phone last nite n he just seemed really angry about everything and I told him it was cuz I was the one that would always calm him down... Im the only one that really knows how. IS THAT NOT WEIRD?
He is MY BEST FRIEND!!!! I know he has feelings for me... or at least he did... I don't know if he still does???
I just don't want to ruin anything :( Hes in B.C anyways til September..... Maybe I can see then?
It sure doesn't help that I know SAM (Cords Ex Gf) is going to visit him for like 3 weeks next month.... All these thoughts are going thru my mind and for the first time in my life... I'M JEALOUS!!!!!
What if she takes him away from me? :( She seems to be good at doing that....
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